06.13.11 // My Mondays
This past week has been really interesting for me — rather difficult at times, but most-definitely interesting all the way through. I’ve been churning many-an-idea over in my mind (some delightful, some deflating, some invigorating, some heart breaking), and I’ve found myself asking lots of questions.
Yesterday afternoon, I was sitting in my living room doing some editing. I heard this loud music sifting in through my open windows, successfully shattering my focus. I realized it was coming from the back end of my apartment though, and not the courtyard area. I ventured into my bedroom, and looked out the window. Below me, at my neighboring apartment building, was a wedding processional. Live music was being played, and all these people looking so beautiful were making their way into the apartment complex. Two people were getting married literally right under my nose.
Once they’d filtered into the apartment, the show was over, and I went back to my land of editing.
I don’t know how much time had passed, but suddenly I heard the now-familiar music starting to rise up once more in the background of my own inner zone. Knowing what was coming, I quickly let go of my focus, and rushed back to my bedroom window. All the people were flooding out through that same narrow little walkway at the apartment complex next door.
Then, I saw a puff of white peeking just above the fence making its way down to the front gate. As it got closer, the bride began to reveal herself. She was carrying bright pink flowers – that almost looked like feathers actually (they were very cool). As she made her way down the steps, her beautiful dress came into full view, and my eyes were drawn to the stretch limo that was perched at the curb in front of her.
The music continued. The people continued. The dancing began.
Right there, on the side of the road, a group of people began dancing around themselves. The bride lifted her hands in the air, and started spinning. Cars passing by started honking their horns. In this moment, there was so much happiness collected in this one little area of non-suburban life, and it was awesomely beautiful. These people were having one of the best days of their entire lives, and I was lucky enough to be able participate from a distance by witnessing it all from my very own bedroom window . . . in my jammie pants.
What are the chances of such an occurrence?! I mean HONestly . . .
I went from feeling so focused on my own garbage, and feeling so confused about some really important things in my own life to feeling really happy for these strangers dancing outside my window. Despite my own circumstance, I felt no envy, anger, jealousy . . . nothing negative. It was all positive, and it was all focused outside of myself. It was an absolute gift to me. Bloody brilliant it was!
So . . . why did I choose to share this story with you today? It’s quite simple really: not-so-hot things are going to happen to us all the time throughout our entire lives until the ultimate in “not-so-hot” happens to us and our lives are no longer our concern. We can’t control that. (Even though we sure as hell try to, don’t we?!)
There are SO many beautiful things happening all around you right now, right in this very moment. You just have to open your eyes to see them, and open your heart to experience them.
Not being so focused on ourselves can be a super comforting thing if we allow it to be.
Witnessing happiness in someone else can be a super powerful thing if we embrace it to be.
Just something to think about, yeah?
with passion & gratitude — jennifer