03.05.12 // My Mondays
A question that Oprah introduced me to. A question that she was introduced to when she visited Facebook’s office. And, what an important question! Is it not?
So what would you do if you weren’t afraid?
I have been lucky enough to experience the consequences of my fearless behaviour and actions. There’s been one or three times in my life when I have kicked fear in its ass (assuming fear does have an ass) and moved forward with what my gut was telling me.
I am not sure where fear comes from, but in that moment, I was sure, it came from the mind and I, with my gut, were not going let fear stop us from bringing change into my life! So together, my gut and I, without a thought, decided to kick fear in its ass and move forward—no matter what the consequences!
For months prior, I was contemplating this change but couldn’t actually action it because I was so afraid of the consequences. Then this one day, without even giving it a thought, I got up, I didn’t let my mind influence me with thoughts and put the plan into gear and flew with it.
Even later, when realization set in as to how big an impact my (non) decision was going to have—in not only my life but in the lives of so many people who loved me—I didn’t care. Temporary madness?
May be. But, I didn’t care because I had no fear! I just shrugged my shoulders and let the consequences take me where ever. The only condition I had, subconsciously was that I was not going to be afraid anymore! That, I was not going to let fear stop me from moving forward! It seemed as if I was born again. I was someone different. Someone new. Someone stronger emotionally and more confident!
And when I heard Oprah asking this question today, I realized that fearless performance, is very detached, subconsciously determined, focused even though robotic—without emotion but strangely enough full of calm and confidence that que será, será but also full of subconscious knowledge that whatever will be——WILL be alright!!
And once that sense of calm sets in, it is surprising how quickly we move on and take positive steps forward to make everything in our NOW better than alright.
Even as I think of my last fearless action in 2010, I remember how joyful and peaceful my life became within hours of my decision. I started to just do the things I wanted to and was blessed fully: financially, in my health, my relationship and even envied by my nemesis. Then, fear, somehow found me again and I found myself “settling” for the status quo.
And so as I write this, I am wondering … how the heck did I let fear back into my life? I know what I am capable of, when I am not afraid. So why am I not taking fear by its neck again and wringing it so it never dare stop me again from living my life to its full potential?
Because I am afraid?
What would you do if you weren’t afraid?
. . . what would EYE do if EYE weren’t afraid . . . ?
Generally speaking, I’m a pretty solid, gung-ho, motivated, and confident individual. That said, I unquestionably still have my own slew of flaws, insecurities, and random personality traits that tend to work against me. Like the majority of people — at times I can absolutely WITHout a doubt . . . be my own worst enemy.
When the calendar rolled over to the new year, I felt a stirring in my gut and a fire in my heart — both indicating to me that this is absolutely WITHout a doubt . . . going to be MY year. So much is “in the works” for me, and delicious changes are on my horizon — some huge, others not so much. Regardless of size, awesome is awesome . . . but in order to be able to really take positive advantage of all the opportunities that are approaching me, I realized that I had a lot of personal work to do. I needed to step back from myself, and really assess what is currently working and what is not working; what serves me, and what sabotages me; what makes me feel good and alive, and what makes me feel not-so-good and not-so-alive.
The concept of fear is absolutely incorporated into all this.
I am positively thrilled to announce that I’ve been making some really incredible progress — progress which includes (but is not at all limited to) pushing past some self-imposed (and uber-unnecessary) boundaries. While it was wicked off-putting at first, the results have been fantastically unreal! In return for my efforts towards self-awareness and evolution, I have been blessed with feeling SO much courage coursing through me . . . courage that leaves me feeling happy, peaceful, powerful . . . It’s been as if I’m high on courage! Normally, I’m high on life; now, I’ve been feeling high on courage. I mean, HONestly — how blessed am EYE?!
If I can push past fear-induced or fear-sustained boundaries within the confines of my own life and my own life’s experience — then I know you can do the same, my darling. Find someone or something that inspires action; find someone or something that inspires courage . . . and WHEN you find that someone and/or something , may you be open-eyed, open-minded, and open-hearted enough to choose to ride the winds of that inspiration, and trust in the adventure it shall guide you on. Beyond that — may you then choose to share the awesomeness, and express your gratitude for it all . . . for gratitude is key . . . beautiful, delicious, contagious, and key. Que fanTAStico!!!
Here’s to inspiration, courage, and gratitude, my love . . . :)
with passion & gratitude — jennifer